I made a freakin dream catcher. haha, but no joke, i actually did. I can take a picture of it if you guys dont believe me. We ate pizza, and then we had to write down a dream. I wrote down the one that we are getting chased by lions, it was a weird interpretation that i got from the person that interpreted it. Supposedly the interpretation I gave for the other persons dream was really good. They made me the "official dream interpreter" haha, it was funny. Later we each got a piece of paper, put our name on it and then it got passed around. Whose ever paper you had at that point you had to put somethign cool about them or something you learned about them. I got one that said i was perky, i swore it said dorky and went into a laughing fit. I didn't get outta it until like 10 minutes later because people kept on commenting about it.

I want to be that person, what i'd give to be that person...you have no idea. That is a girl to admire, to want to be, to look up to. That person is the real me. In the summer, im so carefree, not on any agenda. My own person, my real self. I'm really a girl without any care about anything, hyper beyond belief, unlimited energy. Who wakes up at 6 every morning without an alarm. But because of my teachers and my peers im this girl who is a stiff, a bitch, a perfectionist, a depressed person, a bully, the list goes on. i just want to be myself, i want to be who I am.

I woke up this morning, my bed heater wasn't on and i was wearing my mondo sweatshirt. I have no recolection of when i put it on or wearing it to bed. And i always, always turn on the heater for at least part of the night. Which confuses me greatly. It means either i was like stoned or drunk last night, im a very forgetful person, or that something more weird than what happend last night, happend. Ya, im going with the 2nd one too...haha. Doubt i was stoned or drunk. And i dont think anythign could have toped last night.

Well today was boring and it sucked. Got up, hung out. Plans got cancelled once again. Its pissing me off a bit, getting frusterated i guess you could say. Ended up going with mi madre to best buys. I was gonna get some cds, which they ended up not having. And i was gonna get DDR, they were outta that too. So i must go to a different one, but my sister went to the one that had both things tonight and didnt' tell me. Now i still dont have either. *tear* well not really, but thats okay.

Went to kohls and got a buncha stuff, so yay for that! Started to go home and then we went to the real estate agents office. We put in a bid so hopefully we'll get it! Its right down the street from my parents friends one so we can just share everything. Its gonna be awesome, and i think we are putting a room in the garage loft so me and dayna have somewhere to chill with our friends and blast our music. I'm excited and im hoping it goes through. Although the bedrooms are reallly tiny, they are about the size of my library, possibly smaller. Well you know how small that is if you've ever seen my library. So we put in that bid and then i came home. Nothing exciting has happend since then.

EDIT- is it really that hard to say 2 words to someone and make everything better? The problem from last week is still here, i've just avoided it for the past week. Although now its back and sooner or later i'm going to have to deal with it. Actually, im going to wait until they (meaning both) approach me and talk to me about it. Its not my problem anymore...they are the ones that are going to be mad. Not me.

Had a breakdown yesterday, that wasn't too cool. I wont go into complete detail just cause i dont need everyone knowing everything. but if you would like to know, feel free to ask. I wont spaz about it if you do... but after school everything went straight down the drain. I put up some spaztic away message about how my friends dont care enough or some shit like that. i got some responces back, some good some bad. one saying that they always ask me if im okay and shit, and im thankful for them. I just wish i could tell them everything that goes on...

Anyways on a more happier note, my lovely day today. i actually had an awesome day today, and im very glad cause i was in dire (sp?) need of one. Well today. Bus was pretty fun, forgot what we talked about tho...ah well, it was still fun. Got to school and was at my locker. all the sudden i think someone is standing like right next to me so i turn and eric is there. and he has no idea what im saying, so i went up to weingarden cause im a moron. Figured out my math, and turns out, i knew what i was doing all along! yay for that!

Went back down and ate breakfast and chilled for a while. marshall, used the band saw and almost choped my hand off. used the drill press and almost broke my arm and then used the scroll saw and almost sawed my car in half. pleasnt isn't it? ya, i can use the power tools, but not really when 5 people are crowed around you, its not fun. Got called down to the honor roll assembly. There were 3 kids from my first hour class that went, its pathetic. I was the only girl, that could be cause im the only girl in the 8th grade in that class...but shhhh.

Was in the assembly from the end of 1st hour until lunch. It was fun, i sat with people i dont usually hang with but muchos fun. I had a coke and m&ms before 9:00. That was freakin awesome, i dont even do that at home. But after crying, arguing, laughing, making fun of people, can flicking and muuuuuch more it was lunch.

So i ate my lunch, once again with people i sit with but not on a normal basis. I had saved seats for the norm crew. but they were stolen and i was too zonked to fight for them. So i let the chaldos take them. Eh, no biggy, i had fun at lunch. Talked about absolutly nothing, always fun. Went down to a locker for a waterbottle. I came back in the cafe, i think someone yelled my name, but i didn't around. I thought i knew who it was...hence the reason i didnt' turn around. Well we ended up talking about someone, ya, you guys all need to do soemthign about them. Not a good thing what is going on.

4th and 5th hour, minninger. Took notes on trails, still need to do that this weekend...and some other stuff. Jordan has gotten past stating the obvious that im a girl and now onto saying that women are useless and shit liek that. He doesn't believe it but he knwos how much it pisses me off. urg!! he told me he only harasses me cause its fun and he has nothing better to do. how nice for me. And its worse this time cause he sits next to me instead of behind me. That class is pretty fun considering i have no real close friends in that class...

kolo, talked to mr. heitch between 5th and 6th hour. He told me he talked to kolo for 45 minutes after school on wednesday :D We did nothing in her class, we watched a movie and i got called up like 5 times. The main time tho we discussed my project for like 5/10 minutes. I'm very good at persuading people and laying the guilt trip down. hehe, good thing too cause it worked. Me and fink each got an A+ and we didn't even present. haha, its awesome. After school fink was like bowing down to me and im like the eptimy of awesomeness cause i got him an A+ in science. yay!

7th hour, did our houses more. I think we are catching up...i hope anyways. Its not my fault im stuck with a moron for a partner who messed up both of her elevations! ahhh!! Its really annoying cause we need mr. spaniol to help us fix everything :( it makes me mad. Stupid carnival was then, i refused to go, its the eptimy of all evil. Well all of that shit is anyways. Im like anti-school spirit. Well except for sports, i like that stuff.

Yesterday, it was pretty fun. oooo wait, thats when the optimist speech was. Tuesday, oy. Let me just inform you of the important thing, i didn't win. Bhavika and Brandon did tho. I still say those judges were completely biased, somehow they picked the other two girls over me and rachel even though we were obviously better than they were. It was funny, after it was over, Dustin came over to me and the first thing he said was: You were robbed! well it was funny.

Sunday - BBYO shit. that was horrible, im scarred for life from that. It was so obvious they didn't want me there it was hystarical. I mean from the second I walked in to when i left i got looks that ment: so why is she here? ya, that wasn't too cool. But im not joining that one. ugh, stupid JAPs. Had to do my I-search cards when i got home. ugh, too many!! i didnt' even finish *sigh* those were evil. Talked to Amanda for a while..yep yep, that was interesting too.

Today - i took the bus to school! yay for that! I haven't been on the bus for 3 weeks. hehe. Before school, I ate and talked to eric and fink. Bhavika showed up too so that was cool. Everyone commented on my bootless foot and/or my new shoes :D i like them and they fit so im happy. Marshall, i did more research cards and then some guy from the hs came and talked to us. spanish, did presentations. we completely bomed ours.